"The only way out is up," Elsie whispered to me

Lo siento for not updating in so long. I've got a load of tests and general crap headed my way with a rolling pin in its hand, so this will be short.
So a couple weeks ago my dad took me out to see Rent on Broadway!! I love love love this musical. It may be my favorite.
My dad turned to me during intermission, and said

"You know....every time I see this musical.....I dislike it less and less."

Well that's an improvement, I guess, haha. Thanks so much for taking me, dad! If you're reading this <3 . So at the door the guide took our tickets and led us down the aisle. We went down.
And down.
And down.
AND DOWN.
And my eyes got bigger and bigger the closer we got to the stage until we were four rows from the stage itself.

Needless to say, I was flipping out quite a bit. I love being so close to the actors- seeing their expressions and movements so minutely is incredible. And at the very end, when they were singing the finale and they were all crying... That was one of my favorite theater experiences ever. The original cast in all their awesomeness.

So in other newz....went thrifting with some friends and found some awesome awesome stuff. I got a really beautiful basket/purse that reminds me of a picnic basket, and a sweet indian necklace.Caught whilst pinning the beast. Didn't end up getting this, but it MAY find its way home with me soon...it's been awesome lacy goldness has been eating at my brain like unsuspecting gothic english common people eat Mrs. Lovett's meat pies.

I would totally have gotten this jacket. If there weren't cows all over it. Srsly. Without the cows, man....my perfect hippie jacket. With them....my third grade teacher who seemed to have a 'barnyard' theme comes to mind.

And I found a diary!!!! I think it was from the 30's- how incredible is that???? I had 6 months of someone else's life in my hands. I didn't buy it then cuz i didn't have the money (ka-ching, ka-ching...need a job....), but I'm going to go back there every couple days and read it in increments.

Where I could be instead of in Computer Applications at 11 am every morning.

The cherry blossoms outside of my hotel room.

On a college visit.

Didn't like the school. Loved the trees =D

I've got such a burning urge to create something right now. Doodling during school isn't satisfying enough...But everything has to be put off until I have thoroughly stabbed my AP tests in the heart with a stake. I am the high school Van Helsing.

It's amazing how little things can cheer me up so much...hot and sour soup and sushi at my favorite japanese place, lighting my frog on fire (haha)
In my journal last night I wrote a list of things that make me happy/inspire me. That will be my next post once the ghostly spectre of testing is out of the way.

Oh and geez louise I just saw Benny and June for the first time! Dude...If I didn't appreciate Johnny Depp as an actor before, I really do now. And I really want to iron me some grilled cheese sandwhiches. It's strange, because I'm not sure if I think the movie was a good one or not- in an artistic sense. But I loved it just because he was so incredible in it.

This is what I do when my mom tells me to smile with my teeth.
lovelovelove!
p.s.-only thing to do, is jump o-verr the mooon!

I know a guy

who goes to shows
and when they're over
he blows his nose
he don't use tissues
or his sleeve
he uses
magazines
magazines
magazines
-She Don't Use Jelly, The Flaming Lips

Sorry I haven't posted in ages...college trips and general confusion have been stealing my life away like a pirate steals booty. Um. Anyway.

start spreadin the newzzz

NYU was pretty awesome. I dunno if I'm going there though...my life is as murky with indecision as a glass of Nesquick. Right now it's between NYU and another school...

I really did not get a good impression from the panel of admissions people who assembled to talk to us accepted students =p I did get a good impression from the actual students and professors though. Maybe I just don't like admissions people.

I know it's a long shot, but if anybody reading this is an NYU student, please email me or leave a comment! I really didn't have an in-depth conversation with a student about the school...just light chitchat. I'd love to have an actual student's point of view, as I'm having a really hard time deciding what's right for me.
HAAAAAAAA AND AND AND I did get to go to Topshop!!!! Total surprise. I didn't think my parents would let me go, but suddenly, out of the blue and after our tour, my dad asked me:

"Hey, what's the name of that store that you were shrieking to me about a week ago?....Stopshop?"-Dad
"TOPSHOP. "-Me
"Yeah, yeah, that...where is it?"-Dad
"Uh...Broadway and Broome?"-Me
"Okay."-Dad
*howl of joy*-me
This may be old newz, no big deal, regular butter and bread to some of you lucky people who are within 10 min of a store, but as I haven't been to one in 3 years...and the one in NY just opened about 2 weeks ago....BIG DEAL 4 ME =D

So these jeans I'm wearing in the picture are some I got from Topshop...I've loved high waisted skirts for a while now and recently have graduated to high waisted skirts, but I was a bit skittish about the style in jean form...but I tried these on and fell in lurv <3


Me having fun in the hotel. The bed was disappointingly un-bouncy, which is the first quality I look for in a mattress.

The week before last I was visiting another college, which was ohhh kayy... surprisingly, I did like the area it was in though. Kinda the complete opposite of NYC. The sky was up to some weird shit

I love rainy days

The best kind is either a complete storm, or a day when the sky can't seem to decide whether it's going to be dark or sunny.

I love being on the road. I love traveling. One of the things I want to do most before I die is just get in my car and drive for hours. I don't know if I want anyone to come with me or not. But I would drive and drive and when I felt tired I would stop and sleep, and when I was hungry I would stop and find something good to eat, and when I saw something beautiful I would stop and take a picture of it.
It's a bit frightening right now that I don't know where I'm going to be a year from now...what I'll be doing, who I'll be friends with. It's scary in a good way, but that doesn't make it any less frightening to me. It's like life just yawned and woke up and checked out my life and thought "Hm, better change things up a bit all at once."

My reading material doesn't help much right now either...just finished Fight Club, and finished The Fountainhead a while ago...both books that really make you look at your life and what you're doing. I'm trying to figure out how I see the world right now, and how I see myself in it. But whatever I'll do, I will have a camera and my notebook and my friends. And hopefully a good sushi place =p haha.
My parents have been hinting that I should focus on a practical, business oriented job...once I have that settled, I can spend time on things like art and writing. But I want to be proud of my job, and to do what I love.

So I figure as long as I do that, I'm doing okay.

Lovelovelove